Covid-19 and me

I wanna share my small experience about covid-19. It’s a first small epidode of it.

Let me explain what the most difficult and dangerous part of the desiase. It’s your lungs and other problems which could appear after your restoring.


If you ask me why I wanna write this article I could say that I fucked up of covid-19.

Yes, I has restored after 5 weeks of getting tons of pills and mixtures. No i feel well but morning coughing kills Me. My lovely doc told me that this coughing will last more then 5 weeks. Incredibly, fucking incredibly.

I haven’t a clue what I do to restore my lungs completely. Last Friday I checked my lungs on computer thomograph check and it seems that I am restoring my lungs but not fast, not fast, my friends.

From the next week I will use dome special air excersices to restore lungs by Strelnikova. She is a famous singer doctor or smth like this. Her approach uses a fucking bunch of singers, tenors and famous celebrities to restore and develop sing abilities.

I really hope this special air gymnastics helps me to restore my body completely after covid-19.

Bad news for me is some morning pain in my back and terrible pain in my knee. I strongly believe that isn’t influence of fucking covid-19, indeed!

The song of my day and my fucking mood

I like blues….that type of music really motivate me to get my blondie guitar and do a fucking bunch of bands with a tremolo effect. I am on the way to play it.

100 Fucking English Post anniversary!

Hello, brothers and sisters! Today is Easter and I did one hundred fucking English posts! Unbeliveble!

I did it! It was not so easy but I did 100 posts in my fucking English blog. Yeah! I totally understand a fucking bunch of them are completely bullshit-style and they are fucking shit but I like to do it and I keep learning English. It helps me to motivate myself, describe my life, feel more comfortable whatever I write and just for fun. It’s my fucking memorabilia of my learning way. Additionally, it’s a part of my life. What I mean? I read books and through my posts I am able to give my opinion about the books and articles. However, it’s the easiest way to learn fucking bunch of new words and expressions.

Sometimes, it seems that English drives me crazy but I like it, I like thinking on Fucking English and watch a lot of videos on Youtube and TED-channel, read magazines and books, get new phrases from my Estonian sarcastic teacher who can help dramatically with my fucking mistakes. I love chatting with my colleagues, especially with her, my ex-speedy bullet and the punisher. (Now I am thinking about your new name in my life)…Time to go and I have to add another hundred of posts. Cheers.


Whatever happens I keep learn English

No matter what happens with my and my job I’ll keep learning English. Whoever influences me, I wanna love myself and my decisions. Wherever I will be, I’ll ready to do it immediately.

Two days I was eating only apples, it was an extremely difficult experience for my health but I did it) First day was an easiest of both but the second – an extremely difficult and my brain didn’t work properly and I felt a couple of dizziness episodes with me.

No matter who learnt me this tactic I was ready for this situation. My blood pressure was a bit lower than usual but I felt well excluding mentioned dizziness episodes.

My former classmate form Finland opened the motorbike season in Suomi and I was glad to hear it from him via WhatsApp application. today he shared a couple of taking photos with his extremely powerful motorbike BMW K1600. No matter where I will be I will ready to help him. Wherever I will be and whatever I will do….He is the best former classmate who motivate me to buy a new motorbike in two years.

A point in my list of read books

One of my colleagues advised me a new book for reading. It was a lot of weeks ago and a couple weeks ago I tried to find it in electronic version like mobs-file or PDF-file but I haven’t found it. After 2-3 days I found the book. The book – “The Journey Home – A Kryon Parable – The Story Of Michael Thomas and the Seven Angels” by Lee Carroll. You can buy it here by example, Amazon.com

I am really advise you, brothers and sisters, to read it. The book is interesting and can help them of us who lost the track and the way, who cannot find the personality, your identify in the life. You can read it easily.

From my perspective, the most difficult and interesting part of the book is the part in the end where you can start to think what you can change in your dark life. The main actor, through book lines and pages, shows us the main idea – you are the best in whole ficking world, you are an uniquem and you have to find your personal way in the life. The seven homes are metaphors of our personal skill or knacks which we must develop every day and do not go your life down. You should like every cell in your body: you nose, mouth, cheeks, eyes, ears, arms and legs, butt and so on, and don’t envy other people in the world.

All of us can win achieve everything in the life: find a new great job, find your second beloved part, find your mission and purpose, find you strength side and weakest side. The life presented us a fucking bunch of chances to change the way, every step in our life is unique, we don’t have predefined ways but, from my opinion, someone on the heaven decides what we should do and shouldn’t. IT always knows all about us, about our thoughts and intentions, plans and can give us a heaven fucking kick to change our opinion about the next step on the life way.

I feel influence of higher power in certain points of my life where I must make a decision of something important for me…All people which you can meet on your way aren’t random, they are predefined, totally. Every fucking person who meet with you or work with you can give you something new and helpful for you, you can accept it or decline but these opportunities are happing every second.

This books allows us to think about your current situation, who are you right now and what the hell is going on with you? I wonder how many people change their job after reading the book?) I reckon a fucking millions of people work on their hating positions but the can work in other places and other companies and like what they do or create. But It’s so tricky to take your ass and change your life. And…the book can change your point of view and change your life immediately.

We live only a once and we can be happy in the life every year, every week, every day and every fucking second, we must be happy with whom who love you, who live with you and who work with you. It is our life and only we decide the environment to the life. Take control of the life: improve your body, your soul, your mentality, your health! Love and life…forever.

I highly recommend to read this book: read it immediately, brothers and sisters. Indeed.

Shortly report about me and my environment

I had an extremely hardworking week. Surprisingly my punisher’s switched off English language in out long chat and now we are chatting only in Russian. From my perspective It’s good point to understand thoughts and the conversation more clearly and natively so…let’s do it on Russian. It’s not a problem for me. My mother is a Russian language teacher and I hope my Russian skill is perfect)

If you ask me about fucking Covid-19, I’d like to say FUCK YOU! I hate this topic. I hear about it everywhere. My wife always watch a fucking bunch of TV shows about Covod-19 and our celebrities use Covid-19 to promote themselves. From my point of view it’s the best opportunity to improve their rating and add a couple of fucking millions of members to their instagram-accounts, fucking bitches. By example, Stas Mikhailov was killing Covid-19 and now he is happy and I noticed his smiling face on the first channel of Russian TV! I’m not sure that he had the Covid-19. I hope yes but I think it’s is only the trend to have Covid-19 disease. I am fed up with talking about Covid-19. Please, change the topic, motherfuckers!

This week is the third week in the isolation. Yes, sometimes I go out from my home to buy a couple bags of products, food and some requiring goods but usually I am at home. Th isolations kills me mentally. Sure. It’s not my nature. I like to meet with people and now I hate every thing in my home. I am fed up with sitting at home and working without any connection to the real world! It’s so unnatural for me!

Yesterday, I gave a virtual kick from my English class. I did a lot of fucking mistakes. Yes, I am so stupid and not using all my brain and opportunities to improve my English. Additionally, before the lesson, I was preparing a challenging answer to my colleagues – I was recording a small video with my and my lovely blondie guitar. Yeah, It was an extremely useful experience. I used another approach to record my guitar playing: I was recording video on my smartphone and, in the same time, I was recording the track on MacBook Pro. My MacBook is too old but work perfectly for regular tasks like letters writing or browser surfing but for music recording it works a bit slowly.

I haven’t got my quarter bonus and I expected to spend my bonus to buy a used next generation MacBook. I hoped but….Fucking Covid-19 totally destroyed all my wishes to buy it. Not to mention of my new plans to buy a new goods.

Anyway, I’d like to share my experience to avoid social networking. I feel well after logged out from all my social networks. Sometimes, 1 time a month, I observe my Instagram account and add a couple of photos from my life just for fun and follow on my lovely punisher…maybe she’ll add a couple new shots or impressive dances. It’s only one exception.

Coffee, yes I like this beautiful and tasty drink but I excluded it from my life. Now I drink only green or seldom black tee with lemon.

From this week, following punisher advice, I’ve added a new healthy habit – every fucking morning I drink one or two glasses of water with lemon.

Next challenge is fasting weekend. I will be eating only green apples and drinking green tea with lemon. I’ll try…

Yesterday’s thoughts

Yesterday was a brilliant day. I like to give presents more than take them. It maybe sounds strange but its really true. I like to see sparkles in the eyes when someone takes a present accidentally without any excuses and reasons only because she or he is in the world. It is fucking awesome and …sure, look on the bright side, I totally understand sometimes it looks strange to get presents from a person who only works with you.

I feel something but I am afraid to confess myself that my efforts and my pressure would have not got the result what I expect. It is my old habit – try to achieve something what I definitely want but II know in advance that this will be a disastrous idea, but still, I am confused to achieve the aim, so that it does not. And what is most surprising, the pain, my mental pain, of awareness of failure will be stronger at the end of the way than at the moment when I already realize the awareness of the failed idea, but I continue to realize it and strive for it with demonic strength.

Let’s give you a short example: when I was young I always dreamt about a new ice-hockey skate. I was drawing them, painting and so on. It was in USSR when there was a lack of goods and I and my family didn’t have any chance to buy them for me. But I was trying to find the skates again and again: I was asking everywhere and my friends…and surprisingly, my brother found them. His classmate was selling a new pair of skates and my parents bought them me. I was very happy!

I have to look on the bright side, It is very difficult to achieve what you really want. Sometimes my wishes are extremely difficult to get or achieve, and I know, I will be feeling absolutely depressing mental state when I don’t achieve the aim, I will be completely destroyed. It’s my nature but it will be in the future not now. How many times I have been trying to escape this mental traps of my wishes but I couldn’t.

Now I feel I am again in the trouble of my mental traps and the issue can dramatically destroy a lot of my perspectives, dreams, wishes and future, and in additional, my relationships. I constantly analyse and scroll through scenarios of my nearest future and I cannot find the answers on my questions which I ask myself every fucking day. That mental or brain turnaround makes me crazy and I have to defeat of double troubles.

Delicious shrimps

I love cooking. I am good at this topic. I have been cooking from starting my University’s education. I am the best in my family, you know.

What I really to do is cooking something new for me. I strongly believe that it is extremely good to be a chief for your family or your beloved person. It’s fucking awesome when you are able to prepare tasty coffee with a delicious meal for your wife or love. I like to share my experience with my friends and colleagues. My father and grandpa were and are the best example of the persons who are able to cook perfectly. My famous grand-pa was a chief in a hotel. I am proud to continue his traditions to be a little chief in my family.

Anyway, the last weekend I was searching, into my double-side fridge something to cook and I found it – under the mammoth part of the meat, I’ve found an old piece of deeply frozen gigantic shrimps which I had bought for my happy birthday.

After this opening…I was starting to search how to cook it perfectly because I thought I was the last chance to prepare so expansively product)… I sorted out with it and created my receipt for the shrimps which I’d like to share with you, my sisters and brothers.

Firstly, you have to buy one 1kg of shrimps or surprisingly have found them like me )))

Secondly, defrost it carefully under warm water because shrimps always save in the frost and a tiny layer of ice.

Thirdly, put them in a space bowl and add salt, a mix of red and black pepper and a bit ginger, and a bit balsamic vinegar. A secret ingredient – is a sliced grapefruit. It adds a bit new accent into your dish. Highly recommend. The shrimps should be put in a fridge from 2 to 4 hours to marinate them.

As a side dish, I like to use grilled potatoes. What I really like is preparing potatoes in my oven. I cut each of potatoes on 4 pieces and add a bit salt. Another way is to marinate potatoes in salt and pepper but from my perspective, that way is too long for me.

Then, after approximately 4 hours, I put shrimps into oven-pan and potatoes in another, and I put only potatoes in the oven at a temperature of 200 degrees. It takes 20-30 minutes to half cook it.

Then I put another oven-pan with marinated shrimps into the oven. It lasts an additional 20 minutes to complete both parts of the dish.

The mission is completed. Please, add your girl or wife and a bottle of red wine to eat the dish!

Take the time and enjoy the meal!

Deeply inside

I strongly believe everything in my life is predefined. Someone, I haven’t a clue – who is it, created a plan for my life. Every person, every episode and every fucking second of my life are predefined.

On my life way, I always meet, discuss, argue with someone who helps me to do something or hurts me. It’s only an experience which studies you, personally, to be more polite, careful, strong and so on.

I feel and hope there are strong differences between your, I am sorry, my wishes and my achievements. For example, every day I try to make a plan but a lot of external influences try to break the rules and destroy your plan completely. We plan our lives either to achieve something important or something necessary for you or for your family, of course, maybe a company.

Any excuse is good to not doing something important to you and I’d like to be hardworking in my life and in my company. Sure, I am a bit crazy when I am working on my perspective projects or wishes. I can do a lot and fast to achieve the aims. It’s my work religion.

You may be surprised but I am the one project manager who achieves a full pack of salary bonuses in my company. Anyway, the reality is extremely different and it always bumps me into the wall to dust off all my craziest dreams and wished, and returns me on the ground. On the positive side, it is a good habit to be a winner in life but on the negative side, it is dramatically hard to be concentrated and focused on a million of things which I want to achieve…

People always judge you by your car or your spacious flat. From my perspective, it’s not necessary for me. Of course, I like expensive muscle cars but I don’t have any chance to buy one of them. It’s a craziness to do it.

I like to deliver my suspicious knowledge like English, project management, self-improving and so on. I read books every day. This is what I really like – I like to grub something new from articles, especially, English-writing articles. I am proud of my grandpa who was a leader of communistic party in USSR but he has been helping a million of people in Murmansk with flats, clinics, special medicine and pills and so on. He is my hero. I hope I will be like him, the leader of something. I must admit my family often compares me with my level grandpa. Honestly, he has died few months ago…black part of my life.

Nevermind, I keep going and doing what I really like and want to achieve.