No matter what happens with my and my job I’ll keep learning English. Whoever influences me, I wanna love myself and my decisions. Wherever I will be, I’ll ready to do it immediately.
Two days I was eating only apples, it was an extremely difficult experience for my health but I did it) First day was an easiest of both but the second – an extremely difficult and my brain didn’t work properly and I felt a couple of dizziness episodes with me.
No matter who learnt me this tactic I was ready for this situation. My blood pressure was a bit lower than usual but I felt well excluding mentioned dizziness episodes.
My former classmate form Finland opened the motorbike season in Suomi and I was glad to hear it from him via WhatsApp application. today he shared a couple of taking photos with his extremely powerful motorbike BMW K1600. No matter where I will be I will ready to help him. Wherever I will be and whatever I will do….He is the best former classmate who motivate me to buy a new motorbike in two years.
One of my colleagues advised me a new book for reading. It was a lot of weeks ago and a couple weeks ago I tried to find it in electronic version like mobs-file or PDF-file but I haven’t found it. After 2-3 days I found the book. The book – “The Journey Home – A Kryon Parable – The Story Of Michael Thomas and the Seven Angels” by Lee Carroll. You can buy it here by example, Amazon.com
I am really advise you, brothers and sisters, to read it. The book is interesting and can help them of us who lost the track and the way, who cannot find the personality, your identify in the life. You can read it easily.
From my perspective, the most difficult and interesting part of the book is the part in the end where you can start to think what you can change in your dark life. The main actor, through book lines and pages, shows us the main idea – you are the best in whole ficking world, you are an uniquem and you have to find your personal way in the life. The seven homes are metaphors of our personal skill or knacks which we must develop every day and do not go your life down. You should like every cell in your body: you nose, mouth, cheeks, eyes, ears, arms and legs, butt and so on, and don’t envy other people in the world.
All of us can win achieve everything in the life: find a new great job, find your second beloved part, find your mission and purpose, find you strength side and weakest side. The life presented us a fucking bunch of chances to change the way, every step in our life is unique, we don’t have predefined ways but, from my opinion, someone on the heaven decides what we should do and shouldn’t. IT always knows all about us, about our thoughts and intentions, plans and can give us a heaven fucking kick to change our opinion about the next step on the life way.
I feel influence of higher power in certain points of my life where I must make a decision of something important for me…All people which you can meet on your way aren’t random, they are predefined, totally. Every fucking person who meet with you or work with you can give you something new and helpful for you, you can accept it or decline but these opportunities are happing every second.
This books allows us to think about your current situation, who are you right now and what the hell is going on with you? I wonder how many people change their job after reading the book?) I reckon a fucking millions of people work on their hating positions but the can work in other places and other companies and like what they do or create. But It’s so tricky to take your ass and change your life. And…the book can change your point of view and change your life immediately.
We live only a once and we can be happy in the life every year, every week, every day and every fucking second, we must be happy with whom who love you, who live with you and who work with you. It is our life and only we decide the environment to the life. Take control of the life: improve your body, your soul, your mentality, your health! Love and life…forever.
I highly recommend to read this book: read it immediately, brothers and sisters. Indeed.
I had an extremely hardworking week. Surprisingly my punisher’s switched off English language in out long chat and now we are chatting only in Russian. From my perspective It’s good point to understand thoughts and the conversation more clearly and natively so…let’s do it on Russian. It’s not a problem for me. My mother is a Russian language teacher and I hope my Russian skill is perfect)
If you ask me about fucking Covid-19, I’d like to say FUCK YOU! I hate this topic. I hear about it everywhere. My wife always watch a fucking bunch of TV shows about Covod-19 and our celebrities use Covid-19 to promote themselves. From my point of view it’s the best opportunity to improve their rating and add a couple of fucking millions of members to their instagram-accounts, fucking bitches. By example, Stas Mikhailov was killing Covid-19 and now he is happy and I noticed his smiling face on the first channel of Russian TV! I’m not sure that he had the Covid-19. I hope yes but I think it’s is only the trend to have Covid-19 disease. I am fed up with talking about Covid-19. Please, change the topic, motherfuckers!
This week is the third week in the isolation. Yes, sometimes I go out from my home to buy a couple bags of products, food and some requiring goods but usually I am at home. Th isolations kills me mentally. Sure. It’s not my nature. I like to meet with people and now I hate every thing in my home. I am fed up with sitting at home and working without any connection to the real world! It’s so unnatural for me!
Yesterday, I gave a virtual kick from my English class. I did a lot of fucking mistakes. Yes, I am so stupid and not using all my brain and opportunities to improve my English. Additionally, before the lesson, I was preparing a challenging answer to my colleagues – I was recording a small video with my and my lovely blondie guitar. Yeah, It was an extremely useful experience. I used another approach to record my guitar playing: I was recording video on my smartphone and, in the same time, I was recording the track on MacBook Pro. My MacBook is too old but work perfectly for regular tasks like letters writing or browser surfing but for music recording it works a bit slowly.
I haven’t got my quarter bonus and I expected to spend my bonus to buy a used next generation MacBook. I hoped but….Fucking Covid-19 totally destroyed all my wishes to buy it. Not to mention of my new plans to buy a new goods.
Anyway, I’d like to share my experience to avoid social networking. I feel well after logged out from all my social networks. Sometimes, 1 time a month, I observe my Instagram account and add a couple of photos from my life just for fun and follow on my lovely punisher…maybe she’ll add a couple new shots or impressive dances. It’s only one exception.
Coffee, yes I like this beautiful and tasty drink but I excluded it from my life. Now I drink only green or seldom black tee with lemon.
From this week, following punisher advice, I’ve added a new healthy habit – every fucking morning I drink one or two glasses of water with lemon.
Next challenge is fasting weekend. I will be eating only green apples and drinking green tea with lemon. I’ll try…
I strongly believe everything in my life is predefined. Someone, I haven’t a clue – who is it, created a plan for my life. Every person, every episode and every fucking second of my life are predefined.
On my life way, I always meet, discuss, argue with someone who helps me to do something or hurts me. It’s only an experience which studies you, personally, to be more polite, careful, strong and so on.
I feel and hope there are strong differences between your, I am sorry, my wishes and my achievements. For example, every day I try to make a plan but a lot of external influences try to break the rules and destroy your plan completely. We plan our lives either to achieve something important or something necessary for you or for your family, of course, maybe a company.
Any excuse is good to not doing something important to you and I’d like to be hardworking in my life and in my company. Sure, I am a bit crazy when I am working on my perspective projects or wishes. I can do a lot and fast to achieve the aims. It’s my work religion.
You may be surprised but I am the one project manager who achieves a full pack of salary bonuses in my company. Anyway, the reality is extremely different and it always bumps me into the wall to dust off all my craziest dreams and wished, and returns me on the ground. On the positive side, it is a good habit to be a winner in life but on the negative side, it is dramatically hard to be concentrated and focused on a million of things which I want to achieve…
People always judge you by your car or your spacious flat. From my perspective, it’s not necessary for me. Of course, I like expensive muscle cars but I don’t have any chance to buy one of them. It’s a craziness to do it.
I like to deliver my suspicious knowledge like English, project management, self-improving and so on. I read books every day. This is what I really like – I like to grub something new from articles, especially, English-writing articles. I am proud of my grandpa who was a leader of communistic party in USSR but he has been helping a million of people in Murmansk with flats, clinics, special medicine and pills and so on. He is my hero. I hope I will be like him, the leader of something. I must admit my family often compares me with my level grandpa. Honestly, he has died few months ago…black part of my life.
Nevermind, I keep going and doing what I really like and want to achieve.
The thing is I like to start my day like today. What I mean is I like to study English on Saturdays. It’s so cute to wake up early and communicate with my Estonian teacher who can speak with you and correct your, sorry, my Jesus-fucking-Christ, mistakes.
Besides, I like to use duolingua application and use it to revision my grammar skill. I enjoyed to find it a couple of months ago. It’s my daily English activity.
I like to chat via Whatsapp application with my colleagues and friends, discuss some light and deep-minded topics. It helps me to improve my writing skill, my fast-responding skill.
I like to post records in my personal English blog. By the end of the year, It will have helped me to understand and observe my Aim 2020, really.
Bloody hell, I did about 100 posts! Sure, it’s the greatest and overwhelmed success for me, really. You are totally right I can write completely bullshits on my blog’s pages but It’s my blog! What I really want is be freely with English.
I wanna say fuck you to all my enemies and dickheading ill-wishers (a new good word). I’d rather o create new posts instead of sitting in the chair and smoking cigarettes.
Surprisingly today is a sunny day. I like summer and the sun personally. Hello, fucking Sun)
According to the situation with the Covid-19, I am filling a terrible pain in the ass sitting at home in the isolating regime. It’s fucking time but time to observe your life, to create new ideas, to love your families, to play, to chat, to meet virtually via zoom, skype and so on, to have sex, to cook delicious meals and a lot of funny things, especially, to drink a glass of delightful red or white wine…or send to someone something hopeful about a new stage of your relationships. Anyway, it is a brilliant time to develop yourself and understand what you are and who you are in the fucking life, bitches!
Today is my usual Monday. I woke up at about 6.00. Every Fucking day I train my body. I do a light version fo my personal training: 120-150 push up and vacuum 3-4 times and additionally, I use a roll to improve my 6 pack core muscles.
Tuesday and Saturday are my favorite days for Volleyball games. I like this games and I hope I am good as volleyball player.
Next my activity is English…don’t ask me how many hours I study English. I am crazy at Fucking English.
The most interesting and facsinating part is playing guitar. I keen on of it but now I have been studying English with LingvoExpert school and it spent all my free time. After ending this 8 month course I’ll restore my guitar excersises. I hope, I really hope that I will end all my second job activities and all summer weekends will play on my lovely guitar. I want to buy a new guitar amplifer or some device to extend my home guitar stuff collection.
Apart from that my collegue Victor has helped me to learn principles of cubic rubica. He gave me a short instruction how puzzle it fast and productive. Now I am able to puzzle 2 rows of Cubic. It’s my a small achievment.
Of course, I love my family…I like to play chess with my daugher. A couple month ago It was funny but now It isn’t….He has been progerssing extremely fast and now I have to think of every fucking step during the chess match.
I don’t know but last few days I feel completely destroyed. I can work, can drink and eat but I think I have deep depression, something like emptiness and alone. I am as on quarantine regime in my soul.
I do my routine and chores through significant effort and mind power. I don’t feel well. Something bad with me, I have to define the reason of this mind state.
I don’t tell someone something. I want to look at a one-point and don’t move.
No motivation, no energetic impact for my fucking ass, no fucking movement…No chance to create something new.
Today I’ve got a kick from my lovely motivator and I’ve rated her help in my life.
She reminds me of my 2020 aims and focuses on the my new habits. Cool-cool-cool!
I am sorry, my publisher last weekend I had a terrible fucking pain in my face because of pulling 8th teeth. I should done it in another way it will be problem for another near teeth. For this unpleasant procedure I’ve found my dental specialist who installed me a couple of implants 4 years ago. Yes, i know, I have installed these two implants. I lost my teeth and I should installed another pair of them. The doctor is genius. He created and installed so good teeth that they have been used like mine after a couple of months.
Nevermind I found my dentist who os able to do his work as Pro. I like his approach with patients. The most funny his phrase is “now I’ll hurt a bit” when he starts some dental manipulations with you. His arms are strong and powerful, maybe it is the reason why he is able to do any manipulations correctly.
His clinic is located near my district but beyond the circle road. The district called Novodevyatkino. It is pain for any car drivers. The roads…no, one fucking road is so busy and traffic jammed that I spend 40-50 minutes to deliver my body to the clinic. Fucking shit, where is the government? They should resolve the road problem for that district.
Moreover, the road surface quality is awfully… You can destroy your tires on this road. Unbelievable.
In conclusion, I pulled off one tooth and I am happy. After 2 months I should visit my another dentist to check the status of repaired teeth which I had been repaired recently.
I have been reading a lot of motivating books. Some of them re-telling others but surprisingly I started to understand one thing which I’ve got from this type of books. You should transform knowledge which you have been gotten from books and involve in your life: partly or completely but you should or must if you wanna get new results in your life.
Some people say that you should choose a personal teacher or punisher for yourself who can motivate you, give you a bit of advice or say “good night” in the night.
The best idea for choosing that the motivator should like you and each other. You must connect with each other mentally, after it, all your activities will work by themself.
Perhaps, I found the motivator for me. I try to say it accuracy: I feel her influence and her attitude for me. I can send my thoughts and my fears her and get advice or some reaction to my thoughts. It’s extremely useful to know another opinion.
It is worth noting that sometimes she sends me a small message only for fun and I feel emotional growth after her messages.
In conclusion, I haven’t a clue how long time we can chat together and she will be able to motivate to get new goals but I really hope It will be for years or decades.
Big-big thank you for your help, my lovely punisher)