People in my life

Sometime I think all events, meetings and other important twists of fate are predictable.

My way, my life, my vision, my women – all this staff is created by someone, let’s called it God provision.

But surprisingly your faith kicked you and gave a hard question which stopped you and your life way under review. You started to estimate your good and bad sides, compare to other people an overview all your life.

Frankly speaking It usually painful procedure to recall all your fucking fails and fuck ups which you’ve done. Its your pain in your ass. Its your heritage, it is your projects and deals, your fucking scrap which you have to carry every single day to the end of your life…

Another topic is your children if you have them. It’s your personal continuation, your monumental creatures which will remember you of your behaviour, words, phrases and the most important – your attitude with them…

Your attention and love, your anger and fury, all this fucking staff, all this scap will moral kick you in the last your day.

I often discussed with my grandpa, he didn’t faith in God but he always told me that I should do what I want and need but I must remember about my last day and my final day…

Some people can improve you mentally or destroy your self-confidence or strike on your ability to life without troubles.

Thanks haven, most of my influence people especially women brought into my life only positive feelings and exclusive emotions, they improved my character, lifestyle and ability to think positively.

Each of elements of my life puzzle worsts to recall in the last day, on deathbed…

I do not regret my actions and words which I did or said. It’s my baggage to another dimention…

One month without fucking English

my MacBook after restoring cooling system for the main processor and the video chip

I spent ton of hours to learn English but now I feel how i can loose all my knowledge only for months.

I reckon that most powerful weapon to restore and save your knowledge is repeating and using your English. Every fucking day I must use my English vocabulary, get out old words and add new words.

Personally for me, the most difficult part is repeating. I understand that I am an extremely lazy person and my brain always wants to fuck off English words.

It’s not useful skill for me, I have English meetings or Skype conferences only 1-2 times per week. It’s absolutely minor to recall and repeat my English active vocabulary.

If I don’t use English every day on my work I have to use it in my life, every step or minute.

My favourite list is:

  • writing a short essay in my English blog.
  • Finding a couple of people in social networks
  • Reading books
  • Listening to audio books and podcasts
  • Sharing my knowledge to co-workers
  • Chatting with someone who has a level higher than mine
  • watching series and education videos by English teachers

yea, I totally understand it’s a passive strategy but it’s more than nothing to train my brain.

Covid-19 and me

I wanna share my small experience about covid-19. It’s a first small epidode of it.

Let me explain what the most difficult and dangerous part of the desiase. It’s your lungs and other problems which could appear after your restoring.


If you ask me why I wanna write this article I could say that I fucked up of covid-19.

Yes, I has restored after 5 weeks of getting tons of pills and mixtures. No i feel well but morning coughing kills Me. My lovely doc told me that this coughing will last more then 5 weeks. Incredibly, fucking incredibly.

I haven’t a clue what I do to restore my lungs completely. Last Friday I checked my lungs on computer thomograph check and it seems that I am restoring my lungs but not fast, not fast, my friends.

From the next week I will use dome special air excersices to restore lungs by Strelnikova. She is a famous singer doctor or smth like this. Her approach uses a fucking bunch of singers, tenors and famous celebrities to restore and develop sing abilities.

I really hope this special air gymnastics helps me to restore my body completely after covid-19.

Bad news for me is some morning pain in my back and terrible pain in my knee. I strongly believe that isn’t influence of fucking covid-19, indeed!

The song of my day and my fucking mood

I like blues….that type of music really motivate me to get my blondie guitar and do a fucking bunch of bands with a tremolo effect. I am on the way to play it.

100 Fucking English Post anniversary!

Hello, brothers and sisters! Today is Easter and I did one hundred fucking English posts! Unbeliveble!

I did it! It was not so easy but I did 100 posts in my fucking English blog. Yeah! I totally understand a fucking bunch of them are completely bullshit-style and they are fucking shit but I like to do it and I keep learning English. It helps me to motivate myself, describe my life, feel more comfortable whatever I write and just for fun. It’s my fucking memorabilia of my learning way. Additionally, it’s a part of my life. What I mean? I read books and through my posts I am able to give my opinion about the books and articles. However, it’s the easiest way to learn fucking bunch of new words and expressions.

Sometimes, it seems that English drives me crazy but I like it, I like thinking on Fucking English and watch a lot of videos on Youtube and TED-channel, read magazines and books, get new phrases from my Estonian sarcastic teacher who can help dramatically with my fucking mistakes. I love chatting with my colleagues, especially with her, my ex-speedy bullet and the punisher. (Now I am thinking about your new name in my life)…Time to go and I have to add another hundred of posts. Cheers.


Whatever happens I keep learn English

No matter what happens with my and my job I’ll keep learning English. Whoever influences me, I wanna love myself and my decisions. Wherever I will be, I’ll ready to do it immediately.

Two days I was eating only apples, it was an extremely difficult experience for my health but I did it) First day was an easiest of both but the second – an extremely difficult and my brain didn’t work properly and I felt a couple of dizziness episodes with me.

No matter who learnt me this tactic I was ready for this situation. My blood pressure was a bit lower than usual but I felt well excluding mentioned dizziness episodes.

My former classmate form Finland opened the motorbike season in Suomi and I was glad to hear it from him via WhatsApp application. today he shared a couple of taking photos with his extremely powerful motorbike BMW K1600. No matter where I will be I will ready to help him. Wherever I will be and whatever I will do….He is the best former classmate who motivate me to buy a new motorbike in two years.

A point in my list of read books

One of my colleagues advised me a new book for reading. It was a lot of weeks ago and a couple weeks ago I tried to find it in electronic version like mobs-file or PDF-file but I haven’t found it. After 2-3 days I found the book. The book – “The Journey Home – A Kryon Parable – The Story Of Michael Thomas and the Seven Angels” by Lee Carroll. You can buy it here by example, Amazon.com

I am really advise you, brothers and sisters, to read it. The book is interesting and can help them of us who lost the track and the way, who cannot find the personality, your identify in the life. You can read it easily.

From my perspective, the most difficult and interesting part of the book is the part in the end where you can start to think what you can change in your dark life. The main actor, through book lines and pages, shows us the main idea – you are the best in whole ficking world, you are an uniquem and you have to find your personal way in the life. The seven homes are metaphors of our personal skill or knacks which we must develop every day and do not go your life down. You should like every cell in your body: you nose, mouth, cheeks, eyes, ears, arms and legs, butt and so on, and don’t envy other people in the world.

All of us can win achieve everything in the life: find a new great job, find your second beloved part, find your mission and purpose, find you strength side and weakest side. The life presented us a fucking bunch of chances to change the way, every step in our life is unique, we don’t have predefined ways but, from my opinion, someone on the heaven decides what we should do and shouldn’t. IT always knows all about us, about our thoughts and intentions, plans and can give us a heaven fucking kick to change our opinion about the next step on the life way.

I feel influence of higher power in certain points of my life where I must make a decision of something important for me…All people which you can meet on your way aren’t random, they are predefined, totally. Every fucking person who meet with you or work with you can give you something new and helpful for you, you can accept it or decline but these opportunities are happing every second.

This books allows us to think about your current situation, who are you right now and what the hell is going on with you? I wonder how many people change their job after reading the book?) I reckon a fucking millions of people work on their hating positions but the can work in other places and other companies and like what they do or create. But It’s so tricky to take your ass and change your life. And…the book can change your point of view and change your life immediately.

We live only a once and we can be happy in the life every year, every week, every day and every fucking second, we must be happy with whom who love you, who live with you and who work with you. It is our life and only we decide the environment to the life. Take control of the life: improve your body, your soul, your mentality, your health! Love and life…forever.

I highly recommend to read this book: read it immediately, brothers and sisters. Indeed.