One month without fucking English

my MacBook after restoring cooling system for the main processor and the video chip

I spent ton of hours to learn English but now I feel how i can loose all my knowledge only for months.

I reckon that most powerful weapon to restore and save your knowledge is repeating and using your English. Every fucking day I must use my English vocabulary, get out old words and add new words.

Personally for me, the most difficult part is repeating. I understand that I am an extremely lazy person and my brain always wants to fuck off English words.

It’s not useful skill for me, I have English meetings or Skype conferences only 1-2 times per week. It’s absolutely minor to recall and repeat my English active vocabulary.

If I don’t use English every day on my work I have to use it in my life, every step or minute.

My favourite list is:

  • writing a short essay in my English blog.
  • Finding a couple of people in social networks
  • Reading books
  • Listening to audio books and podcasts
  • Sharing my knowledge to co-workers
  • Chatting with someone who has a level higher than mine
  • watching series and education videos by English teachers

yea, I totally understand it’s a passive strategy but it’s more than nothing to train my brain.

Covid-19 and me

I wanna share my small experience about covid-19. It’s a first small epidode of it.

Let me explain what the most difficult and dangerous part of the desiase. It’s your lungs and other problems which could appear after your restoring.


If you ask me why I wanna write this article I could say that I fucked up of covid-19.

Yes, I has restored after 5 weeks of getting tons of pills and mixtures. No i feel well but morning coughing kills Me. My lovely doc told me that this coughing will last more then 5 weeks. Incredibly, fucking incredibly.

I haven’t a clue what I do to restore my lungs completely. Last Friday I checked my lungs on computer thomograph check and it seems that I am restoring my lungs but not fast, not fast, my friends.

From the next week I will use dome special air excersices to restore lungs by Strelnikova. She is a famous singer doctor or smth like this. Her approach uses a fucking bunch of singers, tenors and famous celebrities to restore and develop sing abilities.

I really hope this special air gymnastics helps me to restore my body completely after covid-19.

Bad news for me is some morning pain in my back and terrible pain in my knee. I strongly believe that isn’t influence of fucking covid-19, indeed!

The song of my day and my fucking mood

I like blues….that type of music really motivate me to get my blondie guitar and do a fucking bunch of bands with a tremolo effect. I am on the way to play it.

100 Fucking English Post anniversary!

Hello, brothers and sisters! Today is Easter and I did one hundred fucking English posts! Unbeliveble!

I did it! It was not so easy but I did 100 posts in my fucking English blog. Yeah! I totally understand a fucking bunch of them are completely bullshit-style and they are fucking shit but I like to do it and I keep learning English. It helps me to motivate myself, describe my life, feel more comfortable whatever I write and just for fun. It’s my fucking memorabilia of my learning way. Additionally, it’s a part of my life. What I mean? I read books and through my posts I am able to give my opinion about the books and articles. However, it’s the easiest way to learn fucking bunch of new words and expressions.

Sometimes, it seems that English drives me crazy but I like it, I like thinking on Fucking English and watch a lot of videos on Youtube and TED-channel, read magazines and books, get new phrases from my Estonian sarcastic teacher who can help dramatically with my fucking mistakes. I love chatting with my colleagues, especially with her, my ex-speedy bullet and the punisher. (Now I am thinking about your new name in my life)…Time to go and I have to add another hundred of posts. Cheers.


Whatever happens I keep learn English

No matter what happens with my and my job I’ll keep learning English. Whoever influences me, I wanna love myself and my decisions. Wherever I will be, I’ll ready to do it immediately.

Two days I was eating only apples, it was an extremely difficult experience for my health but I did it) First day was an easiest of both but the second – an extremely difficult and my brain didn’t work properly and I felt a couple of dizziness episodes with me.

No matter who learnt me this tactic I was ready for this situation. My blood pressure was a bit lower than usual but I felt well excluding mentioned dizziness episodes.

My former classmate form Finland opened the motorbike season in Suomi and I was glad to hear it from him via WhatsApp application. today he shared a couple of taking photos with his extremely powerful motorbike BMW K1600. No matter where I will be I will ready to help him. Wherever I will be and whatever I will do….He is the best former classmate who motivate me to buy a new motorbike in two years.

A point in my list of read books

One of my colleagues advised me a new book for reading. It was a lot of weeks ago and a couple weeks ago I tried to find it in electronic version like mobs-file or PDF-file but I haven’t found it. After 2-3 days I found the book. The book – “The Journey Home – A Kryon Parable – The Story Of Michael Thomas and the Seven Angels” by Lee Carroll. You can buy it here by example, Amazon.com

I am really advise you, brothers and sisters, to read it. The book is interesting and can help them of us who lost the track and the way, who cannot find the personality, your identify in the life. You can read it easily.

From my perspective, the most difficult and interesting part of the book is the part in the end where you can start to think what you can change in your dark life. The main actor, through book lines and pages, shows us the main idea – you are the best in whole ficking world, you are an uniquem and you have to find your personal way in the life. The seven homes are metaphors of our personal skill or knacks which we must develop every day and do not go your life down. You should like every cell in your body: you nose, mouth, cheeks, eyes, ears, arms and legs, butt and so on, and don’t envy other people in the world.

All of us can win achieve everything in the life: find a new great job, find your second beloved part, find your mission and purpose, find you strength side and weakest side. The life presented us a fucking bunch of chances to change the way, every step in our life is unique, we don’t have predefined ways but, from my opinion, someone on the heaven decides what we should do and shouldn’t. IT always knows all about us, about our thoughts and intentions, plans and can give us a heaven fucking kick to change our opinion about the next step on the life way.

I feel influence of higher power in certain points of my life where I must make a decision of something important for me…All people which you can meet on your way aren’t random, they are predefined, totally. Every fucking person who meet with you or work with you can give you something new and helpful for you, you can accept it or decline but these opportunities are happing every second.

This books allows us to think about your current situation, who are you right now and what the hell is going on with you? I wonder how many people change their job after reading the book?) I reckon a fucking millions of people work on their hating positions but the can work in other places and other companies and like what they do or create. But It’s so tricky to take your ass and change your life. And…the book can change your point of view and change your life immediately.

We live only a once and we can be happy in the life every year, every week, every day and every fucking second, we must be happy with whom who love you, who live with you and who work with you. It is our life and only we decide the environment to the life. Take control of the life: improve your body, your soul, your mentality, your health! Love and life…forever.

I highly recommend to read this book: read it immediately, brothers and sisters. Indeed.

Shortly report about me and my environment

I had an extremely hardworking week. Surprisingly my punisher’s switched off English language in out long chat and now we are chatting only in Russian. From my perspective It’s good point to understand thoughts and the conversation more clearly and natively so…let’s do it on Russian. It’s not a problem for me. My mother is a Russian language teacher and I hope my Russian skill is perfect)

If you ask me about fucking Covid-19, I’d like to say FUCK YOU! I hate this topic. I hear about it everywhere. My wife always watch a fucking bunch of TV shows about Covod-19 and our celebrities use Covid-19 to promote themselves. From my point of view it’s the best opportunity to improve their rating and add a couple of fucking millions of members to their instagram-accounts, fucking bitches. By example, Stas Mikhailov was killing Covid-19 and now he is happy and I noticed his smiling face on the first channel of Russian TV! I’m not sure that he had the Covid-19. I hope yes but I think it’s is only the trend to have Covid-19 disease. I am fed up with talking about Covid-19. Please, change the topic, motherfuckers!

This week is the third week in the isolation. Yes, sometimes I go out from my home to buy a couple bags of products, food and some requiring goods but usually I am at home. Th isolations kills me mentally. Sure. It’s not my nature. I like to meet with people and now I hate every thing in my home. I am fed up with sitting at home and working without any connection to the real world! It’s so unnatural for me!

Yesterday, I gave a virtual kick from my English class. I did a lot of fucking mistakes. Yes, I am so stupid and not using all my brain and opportunities to improve my English. Additionally, before the lesson, I was preparing a challenging answer to my colleagues – I was recording a small video with my and my lovely blondie guitar. Yeah, It was an extremely useful experience. I used another approach to record my guitar playing: I was recording video on my smartphone and, in the same time, I was recording the track on MacBook Pro. My MacBook is too old but work perfectly for regular tasks like letters writing or browser surfing but for music recording it works a bit slowly.

I haven’t got my quarter bonus and I expected to spend my bonus to buy a used next generation MacBook. I hoped but….Fucking Covid-19 totally destroyed all my wishes to buy it. Not to mention of my new plans to buy a new goods.

Anyway, I’d like to share my experience to avoid social networking. I feel well after logged out from all my social networks. Sometimes, 1 time a month, I observe my Instagram account and add a couple of photos from my life just for fun and follow on my lovely punisher…maybe she’ll add a couple new shots or impressive dances. It’s only one exception.

Coffee, yes I like this beautiful and tasty drink but I excluded it from my life. Now I drink only green or seldom black tee with lemon.

From this week, following punisher advice, I’ve added a new healthy habit – every fucking morning I drink one or two glasses of water with lemon.

Next challenge is fasting weekend. I will be eating only green apples and drinking green tea with lemon. I’ll try…